Stress was real
I was really touched by Anne's story so i would like to post something a little similar
Back in 2015 - when I started lifting weights, I would remember my mom who is the biggest critic would tell me to start loosing weight because I was getting fat or to tell me that everything looks ok but my sides. I would get so offended! I would snap and tell her off by playing the two can play at that game trying to teach her in reverse..
2016 - I decided to compete my first body building competition. Questions and comments like "Why are you doing that? Are you a man? Your shoulders are starting to look bold. You're big! You look sick and you're not healthy!" I was so offended because I love going to the gym and being very active! In all honesty - exercising was my escape from my stressful life. I'm active because I don't like to sit around and do nothing (unless I'm really wanting to relax) I do it because it makes me happy.
Isn't that what really mattered?
I decided to invite my mom to my competition, first time she was ever to be invited to an important event that meant a lot to me. Mind you - I never even invited her to my HS graduation - I didn't like her presence.
At MABBA - She was proud of me, Cheering for me out loud while having the security telling her to put her phone down and to stop taking pictures. I'm sure that was one of her proudest moments.
2017 - I decided to move out on my own which was a big accomplishment for myself. New challenges and living closer to my dad (I wanted this more than anything)
It was rough - my body wasn't reacting very well - I obviously didn't look lean as how I was in 2016 and my environment was really hard to adapt with. I was tired all the time 😫
Honest truth: I cried everyday and really struggled - I questioned my abilities and I was having a hard time living here with the time adjustments and culture shock.
My hair starting falling off and it was embarrassing to walk around with a headtop bald spot. The stress was beyond I have ever felt and I usually handle stress very well.
This wasn't me and I knew that
I called my mom - I cried to her through video chat and she had mentioned something that really touched my heart.
"You're beautiful and you know you can do anything - you can be any size you want to be. whether you are fat or skinny.. You are so beautiful and very smart. You can be great at whatever you want to be or whatever you want to do. Hien! Dont cry - You're the best"
I'm crying right now typing this out for you all because I love my mom so much.
I had to change my mindset and get up because I knew I was stronger than this.
I get up early and head to the gym, I read a lot, I eat my meals that I make on my own, spend time with my dad and I get good sleep. My mind beame clear and after the visit to Winnipeg, I received a lot of love from my friends, my mom and Chloe - I had clarity.
I had direction
I'm happy and that's all that mattered
My hair grew back and I guess you can say I'm more confident than 3 months ago.
Back to what feels right - I feel great🙂
I hope this post gives some awareness that you're never alone. When something interuppts your flow - the challenge was given to you because you know you're capable of overcoming it.
🙂 Thank you for reading! Have a great day everyone
Back in 2015 - when I started lifting weights, I would remember my mom who is the biggest critic would tell me to start loosing weight because I was getting fat or to tell me that everything looks ok but my sides. I would get so offended! I would snap and tell her off by playing the two can play at that game trying to teach her in reverse..
2016 - I decided to compete my first body building competition. Questions and comments like "Why are you doing that? Are you a man? Your shoulders are starting to look bold. You're big! You look sick and you're not healthy!" I was so offended because I love going to the gym and being very active! In all honesty - exercising was my escape from my stressful life. I'm active because I don't like to sit around and do nothing (unless I'm really wanting to relax) I do it because it makes me happy.
Isn't that what really mattered?
I decided to invite my mom to my competition, first time she was ever to be invited to an important event that meant a lot to me. Mind you - I never even invited her to my HS graduation - I didn't like her presence.
At MABBA - She was proud of me, Cheering for me out loud while having the security telling her to put her phone down and to stop taking pictures. I'm sure that was one of her proudest moments.
2017 - I decided to move out on my own which was a big accomplishment for myself. New challenges and living closer to my dad (I wanted this more than anything)
It was rough - my body wasn't reacting very well - I obviously didn't look lean as how I was in 2016 and my environment was really hard to adapt with. I was tired all the time 😫
Honest truth: I cried everyday and really struggled - I questioned my abilities and I was having a hard time living here with the time adjustments and culture shock.
My hair starting falling off and it was embarrassing to walk around with a headtop bald spot. The stress was beyond I have ever felt and I usually handle stress very well.
This wasn't me and I knew that
I called my mom - I cried to her through video chat and she had mentioned something that really touched my heart.
"You're beautiful and you know you can do anything - you can be any size you want to be. whether you are fat or skinny.. You are so beautiful and very smart. You can be great at whatever you want to be or whatever you want to do. Hien! Dont cry - You're the best"
I'm crying right now typing this out for you all because I love my mom so much.
I had to change my mindset and get up because I knew I was stronger than this.
I get up early and head to the gym, I read a lot, I eat my meals that I make on my own, spend time with my dad and I get good sleep. My mind beame clear and after the visit to Winnipeg, I received a lot of love from my friends, my mom and Chloe - I had clarity.
I had direction
I'm happy and that's all that mattered
My hair grew back and I guess you can say I'm more confident than 3 months ago.
I hope this post gives some awareness that you're never alone. When something interuppts your flow - the challenge was given to you because you know you're capable of overcoming it.
🙂 Thank you for reading! Have a great day everyone
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