GOODBYE WINNIPEG, BONJOUR MONTREAL

Tomorrow is the start of my new beginning, I’d like to take this time to really reflect on what happened in the past that made feel more precise on my decisions I am making today. I feel like I have grown so much and with that being said - I still want more.

My dad left to Montreal when I was 18 - I use to call/email him about how I felt, How much I missed him so much and how much I wanted him to come back. His reply shut me down in which I could not go against it. “I waited 18 years to be happy Linda, Let me have my turn”. From that moment I didn’t have anything to say but to start doing things on my own. Working two to three jobs and constantly keeping busy. Keeping my mind off of the fact that my best friend was somewhat gone.

As I continued my life, I also had my mom - As some of you all know, we don’t have a very good relationship but of course we love each other very much. Our conversations were never long and majority of them was based on disagreements we had for one another. Although we did, she did however made me become a very strong individual that helped me stand my ground. I love her for that and with the decisions that I am making for myself, I love her more for not letting me go even though she doesn’t necessary like the idea of my choices.

I have lost some friendships in my life and also made room for some new. I am not upset or disappointed in anyone - I believe everyone has a purpose in my life even if it’s only for temporary. I can only be grateful for the memories that remind me of why I keep moving forward. 

I learn not to get too attached to moments, I learned not get attached to people. Some will come, some will go and thats just apart of life. Nothing ever stays still.

Throughout the years, I have worked hard but I never really knew why I worked so much.. Day to night, 7 days a week - I just knew I had wanted something but I didn’t know what. Work, get paid and spend it but even though I had money - I wasn’t going anywhere, I was still confused with my life.

If I asked you this question.. “How do you envision your life to be?”

What would your answer be?

I picture everything being very peaceful, I wake up in the morning in my beautiful condo - make some coffee/tea and have a moment to breathe. I get ready and go outside - learn new things and meet new people. I smile because I get to spend time with my family, there are no arguments here. There is no drama or negative vibes - I go to work feeling appreciated and valued. All the money I earn not only goes to my savings but to also be spending on travels to the unknown. 

All of that - I would feel like the richest person.. I feel like I would have it all

All talk but no action. Why is that? For years.. Thats what I have wanted - I couldn’t give myself to another because I didn’t feel like I was at my best. I felt like all I did was have wishful thoughts and complained about why couldn’t it be this or that way.. It was nonsense.

I have made decisions based on what makes me most happiest, I had to let go a lot and change my way of thinking which yes, I did it because it was for me.

To Montreal..

Why Montreal..

Why not Winnipeg?

I never experienced it, I never failed at it so coming out of my shell and moving to this different city.. this different province will be a life changer for me.

Great things never come from comfort zones.. 

Am I petrified? Yes! My heart races every night thinking about this big huge change. Will I be ok? Yes because in life when you fall, you have no choice but to get up and keep moving forward. I accept all failures because they are all just lessons - they make me fearless.

I want to live, I want to be able to chase what claims to be the impossible and make it possible. This is my time and I can do this.. I’m excited for this new beginning - I am excited to share this experience with others and I hope one day you would do the same for yourself as well. 

I want to make this work because I know.. this is for me.